Longing for you

In little whispers I long to call your name
Softly trying your heart to tame
Telling myself this isn't true
That I don't think that way of you

My mind wanders back to your soft eyes
My heart begins to tell such little lies
Of how things would be if you'd let me in
But my thoughts turn away again

This brutal assault goes on all day
Whenever I have nothing better to say
I try to find words that spill my soul
But every time they're swallowed whole

These things that I choke back deep inside
Are tearing me apart with each passing tide
A softly held dream of you
Wondering what more can I do?

When I gain the courage to speak my mind
I'm afraid that I'll run out of time
That you'll find someone else to see
Somewhere else you'd rather be

I worry that these things will erode
Everything that I'd ever longed to hold
So I hold it back deeper then you know
Longing every day to show

A soft caress a quiet kiss
Touching you would be such bliss
Yet I must hold myself away
Just to be near you everyday

I long to speak out to you
Nothing else I'd rather do
But fear chokes it back to me
Pretending something else to be