Has been doing requests in her journal lorivintage55.deviantart.com/j… and I've been truly enjoying the things she's been coming up with. I suggested a Dark Alice in Wonderland idea :thumb128916661: is what she came up with! I'm just amazed at how wonderful it is and I truly think she's got a great idea.

So after my birthday, I'll be doing a journal and taking requests as well. I think it's a great game and has a lot of potential to push me to my limits!

I have to thank for this lovely stamp! :thumb129059254: Isn't it awesome?

I've received so many other birthday gifts! I'm just stunned! Thank you so very much everyone!

My birthday is on Monday July 13th and birthdays for me tend to be... Odd.

I'm actually looking forward to it, normally I inwardly dread my birthday. However, my outlook has changed. I'm really glad that I came here. I don't gush very often, I'm rather a private person I suppose.. But, since my birthday is coming up and I get rather "thoughtful" (not sure that's the word I'm looking for). I've been thinking about how this place really has changed me. I've been here on and off for a while.

During the saga with my mom, this was a Sanctuary. It was hard losing her and so because this had memories I disappeared for a while. I'm really glad that I came back and I'm very glad that I've made all the friends I have here.

You guys have been so very wonderful and accepting. I really love each and every one of you! I keep trying to think of ways to thank those who have touched my life. So many people have come and made a last impression and I often wonder if they even realize it?

Anyways I want to show my gratitude. So at the end of this, I will be featuring all those who have made my day!

I wanted to thank those who have been so kind to me this week I was given some of the most wonderful gifts! I really appreciate it! I was really surprised!

gave me a wonderful deviation (Thank you so very much Michelle!)

gave me some wonderful tubes from her stock!
also gave me some wonderful tubes from her stock! Thank you so very much Kat and Ivey! I really appreciate it!

made this wonderful gift for me (she knows me pretty well!). ( Thank you so very much Barbara!)

made this gorgeous creation for me ! I really appreciate it! (Thank you Chenoa!)

made this wonderful work for me ! I love the flowery images in this fractal!

made this wonderful piece for me! I'm truly enchanted with it! ( Thank you DJ!)

made this stunning picture for me! :thumb128971253: It's so gorgeous! ( Thank you David!)

created this wonderful picture for me! I especially love the blues... My favorite color (ok, black is too ) I adore it! (Thank you so very much Elena!)

created this absolutely gorgeous picture for me! Isn't this gorgeous! (Thank you so very much Pam!)

and his wife collaborated on this wonderful birthday gift! I can't thank them enough, !

Sandi so very kindly made myself and a wonderful birthday present! I love it! Isn't she gorgeous? (Thank you Sandi!)

made this absolutely lovely piece for me (I love Nightwish, such an added bonus! )

drew this wonderful piece for me! (I'm so jealous, I want to be able to draw like that Thanks Ricky! )

created this wonderful picture for me! It's so relaxing looking! Thank you so very much Anne!

noticed that I don't have my own bird.. So she remedied the situation as a birthday present to me! Isn't it awesome? :thumb129125063:

was made by for my birthday! Isn't it beautiful! I love the Koi, it's spectacular! Thank you so very much Laura!

I want to thank all of them! This was unexpected and so very kind! I really and truly appreciate it!

:thumb128533625: :thumb111604995: Crossing the VoidI try to see what lies on the other side
Far from home, far from friends
To where my heart is content
Where I see the starry night and
The weeping cherry trees shine in the
Moonlight-like shooting stars.
It is there I can think, I
Become clear sighted again
And once again I try to cross
That narrow gap between light and dark.
To the point where I can discover the true meaning
Of many different questions:
“Why are we here?
What is it that we do?
When we are gone, who looks for our memories?”
Perhaps one day I will completely make it to the other side,
Where I can be at total peace, and return to nature
Just as God intended. :thumb127307628: :thumb101259507: :thumb124970565: :thumb128061424: :thumb121199927: :thumb126669873:

Mature Content

:thumb128825132: :thumb125370600: :thumb126235539: Along the Starglass PathShe became a lakeside
chameleon rising
out of water--mouth parted;  
breaths of words
plunging down her chin.
Skin crusted
with deep blues
(the water had sunk
cerulean-green tentacles into them
eons ago,)
and when she opened her lips to speak,
the breeze
grew silent.
Because it knew her voice
might never be heard again.
“Why have you come here?”
Hopelessness and watery eyelids.
Shut out by violent
waves of foreboding mists;
swirling against the  
crests of waves pulled
by tender moons.
They did not sing to him
like seductive sirens laying
on her shores like pretty,
beached whales.
Instead they whispered,
voice in ears;
with each wave and
its frothy fingers.
“I waited for you.”
She wanted to feed
his words to piranhas,
mouths gnashing each letter,
gouging out hidden meanings.
Calm, lined
with concern swept
from beneath his
twirled teeth and she
watched--knowing eyes, wandering-- as he
ventured closer, feet
pressing rough gr :thumb124403505: :thumb127806653: :thumb127991510: :thumb128242896: :thumb127850978: HushBe quiet, so quiet,
I can’t hear you speak,
Your words- they enrage me,
Pathetic and weak.
You’re nothing,
You’re no one,
A cold witless stare,
You’re so sad,
So dejected,
There’s nobody there.
You’re too thoughtful,
Stop caring,
I am sick of you now,
I don’t love you,
Don’t want you,
Don’t like you somehow.
So be mute,
Just to deafen,
The person I hate,
You’re just nothing,
Just no one,
A clean hollow slate. :thumb128009042: :thumb128165019:

Mature Content

:thumb128742851: :thumb122025667: :thumb127727447: :thumb122399733: Kiss TrailsYou burned kiss trails down my neck and spine
As goosebumps spread like wild fire
From toes to finger tips.
My skin craved more of sweet touches,
Hot breath like volcanoes errupting.
I was left hungry for more
But when none ever came
My eyes swelled as black tears fell
Past rose garden cheeks. :thumb127291718:

Mature Content

FreedomI am free,
No more can you bother me.
Dont try to put me down i will kick you out of town.
I am never alone,
And i never was.
I am going to be happy just cause!
I can laugh i can sing,
I can do almost anything!
So goodbye clouds that are dark,
An stormy skies of gray,
A brightness is inside me and there to stay.
It will burn bright,
You cannot put out my light,I am going to go play,
For it is a new day, so go away!!

Mature Content

:thumb126302839: :thumb88015593: :thumb120910223: :thumb125750495: :thumb80161696: :thumb121754925: :thumb122246845: Summertime Kisses  feather kisses rise
pursed lips cast forth
  dandelion wishes MirageI once had a portrait of your everlasting image,
You were smiling as you often did in this mirage.
Yet your smiles were never meant to be for me,
They were only meant to sap the very air I breathed.
I held that token of the golden days close to my heart,
In fear that I may lose you if I might possibly not.
All the while also begging that holding this close,
Meant something to those who ruled the infinite cosmos.
You were never there with nor for me in all actuality,
It was only your sick little game of my sad mortality.
You played a partially interested character's role,
All the while deepening your demonic control.
All along you wanted to destroy my crumbling world
Constantly plotting and toying with how I'd be unfurled;
And with a single gesture (or an absence as the case may be)
You brought my knees out from underneath me
You walked away, and denied me your wonderful name.
You laughed away, as you found another soul to play.
Now this image has long gone been burned away
Its ashes bu :thumb126698402: OnlyCome together to
Simply fall apart
Always left alone
Submerged in the dark
Constant screaming
Inside my head
Auditory delusions
Only silenced in  
Death
Night after night  
Dawn and dawn
I go away
Something else comes
Out of the shadows
Seeing through my eyes
Inside my visions
Seeing truthful lies
Deafening screams heard
Only all too well
Inside myself trapped
My own personal hell
All the delusions spinning
Inside my head
Only to be silenced
Only in death Your FoolI'm not the fool anymore
I hope he chokes on his words
Because he seems to be
Whenever he says his lines
That he memorized
He'll use them all on me
Until I finally figure out
He isn't who he says he is
No, I won't be played the fool
I've got her hook line and sinker
She's fallen for all the old tricks
She'll never see through my plans
Poor girls going to lose herself in the end
If she holds onto who she thinks
I am to her then she'll be sorry
It turns out I'm everything she wanted
That's what I get for being so cunning
He can charm anyone
He's got style and an attitude
I've seen right through him now
He won't get away with it anymore
He chokes on the "I love yous"
And "I'm so sorrys"
But when it comes to degrading words
He says them without a second thought
She's not everything she thought she was
No I'm playing my cards right and it seems to me
That she's falling right into my hands again
She's falling faster then she ever thought she would
I think she's catchi Happily Ever After
Everything was perfect,
All my dreams were about to come true,
Visions of Wedding bells in my head,
Then it all came crashing down.
I always thought cold feet was just an expression,
Oh how very wrong I was,
All was perfect with you,
But I got scared and ran away.
You were my rock,
You were my Love,
You were my everything,
You were my happy ending.
I would give up everything,
Just to kiss you again,
I will cry a thousand tears,
A river of saddness I created.
And so I wait,
I will wait as long as it takes,
All I want is you,
You are my happy ending. recessive relationswe've been living on our last dollar,
the days turn to weeks and the weeks turn to hours
who knows when the stress will collapse
the remnants of dignity.
picking and choosing the best use of money -
i can't even sleep
and all i wanna do is run away to some place
somewhere safe
down in the depths of depression,
i just want to run away
i get home from work and you're fast asleep,
twisting and thrashing in the misery of dreams -
we haven't said a word in three whole weeks
but really what's there to say,
love can't heal this thing.
it won't buy the bread, it won't feed the cats;
no love can't heal this thing.
the only move back from the ledge is to
crawl in next to you,
knowing you'll wake and then hold me close,
no love can't heal this thing but it's the only thing
left to do :thumb13042967: :thumb128365175:


Also, I'm helping judge 's contest yueko-sama.deviantart.com/jour…

This is a really cute contest with the theme "Worst Witch". She's given out some ideas on things that could be done and I really like the idea! Please give her some support, this is her first ever contest!

dedicated this wonderful piece of art to me! I absolutely adore it!

:thumb124904666:

Also created this lovely work for me! I was just stunned, it's so very gorgeous! Thank you so very much!

:thumb124765101:

Also made this awesome stamp for me! :thumb124667921: It's going directly on my stamps on the main page! Muahahahahahahahaha!

was kind enough to create this beautiful picture for me! I love it!

:thumb124846383:



******************************************************************************************
Featuring: (features are going to the main today)
*****************************************************************************
Clubs/Groups:
Club's I belong to


*****************************************************************

I plan to go through and finish making dedications to each of my watchers. I'll be updating my Watcher Dedications window regularly.

****************************************************************************************

Ok, I've just finished populating my stock account [link] to a point that I'm comfortable announcing my evil plans .. Ok so maybe they're not evil.

But first, I'm going to be getting rid of all the stock I created on this account since I've moved it all to my stock-account. (Minus a few pictures that I absolutely adore). Please forgive me?

I'm hosting four contests. To enter please note me on with your entry.

Contests:


For all contests 2 is the limit of entries you can submit.

** The first contest will be for photomanipulations only. The only rules are that you must use at least 3 pieces of my stock (I'm evil ) The reason for that? I wanted to make it complicated.

Contest entries: ferelwing.deviantart.com/favou…

** The second contest is for poetry. The theme is love me/hate me. You can write a poem about love, or hate or both.

Contest entries: ferelwing.deviantart.com/favou…

The third contest is for drawings/traditional/digital drawn art.
For this one you must use one of my stock models as a reference in there somewhere. I don't care if you chibi them etc as long as they're there.

Contest entries: ferelwing.deviantart.com/favou…


** The fourth contest will be a Photography contest. For this contest I want pictures that represent peaceful or meditative states places etc. Please in the note explain to me why you believe it to be peaceful (I really want your take on these).

Contest entries: ferelwing.deviantart.com/favou…

Now onto the prizes.


Prizes:

** 1st place for all four contests will include me buying 2 years of subscription. A feature by me and a dedication piece. For first place only you can request a poem, a photo-manipulation or a photograph dedicated to you. A request from , a feature from , a feature from , and a feature from


** 2nd place for all four contests will include a 1 year subscription. A feature by me and a dedication piece. A fractal from , a feature from , a feature from , and a feature from


** 3rd place for all four contests will be a 3 month subscription. A feature by me and a dedication piece, a feature from , a feature from and a feature from .

****************************************************************

Deadlines:

The first contests (Photomanipulations) deadline will be May 3rd. My mother's birthday and I think it's fitting that I do something fun like this.

The second contests deadline is a bit sooner, March 15th the Ides of March. I thought that would be fitting. (Poetry) CLOSED)

The third contest's deadline April 13th because I've always wanted to host a contest on that date. (Yes, I am strange).

** (Third contest is closed)**

The fourth contest's deadline will be May 13th. Because I like the number 13..

(Closed)
So happy creating! I can't wait to see what you come up with!